Dorm Room Pillow Talks

        Last night my roommate and I were talking before we fell asleep.  She was asking me if I was attracted to any of my engineering friends, to which I said no.  She then asked how long it had been attracted emotionally to someone, which made me realize that it had been six years.  This prompted questions about that time.  I told her a little bit about the situation, replacing all "she's" and " her"  with "they".  (The fact that I don't remember what those are called shows I am an engineer.)  For a while she would ask a bunch of "he" questions, she assumed that it was a guy.  Then this portion of the conversation occurred:
       Her:   "You keep using "they", was there more than one?"
       Me:  "No, it was only one person."
       Her:  "Was it a guy?"
       Me:  "No."
       She then proceeded to ask if anyone had known about this relationship, or how I felt, and I gave her the honest truth of that everyone thought we were friends.
       So my roommate has some idea of my sexual tendencies are now.  I am sure there will be some pressing questions on her end in the future.  Have an awesome week, and if you're in the Upper Midwest, stay warm and safe, I hope you aren't getting cabin fever with the never-ending winter.

Facebook & The Supreme Court Trial

       Sorry for the long gap in between posts, it's been a busy month.  Anyhow, I am sure most of you have heard about the U.S. Supreme Court taking up the cases that involve DOMA and the repeal of Proposition 8.  I am assuming that those of you with Facebook have seen all the red equal signs of people you support marriage equality.  I haven't seen too many anti-gay marriage posts, but I have seen a number of people posting about how they don't think that everyone changing their facebook profile to a red equal sign will make a difference.  They also say how those who have changed their profile picture  should go out and actively do something, rather than stating this on the internet.
      Now for a closeted lesbian's opinion.  It helps so much knowing that so many people who I know in real life actually approve of gay marriage.  Even if I was out I would be happy that there was so much support.  I hope that the Supreme Court will make the correct decision and allow gay marriage in the U.S. since we are a nation all about equality.

That moment...

       I had a pretty good Sunday for the most part.  I slept in a little bit, and did homework most of the day, with a few breaks here and there.  So I was out of the room for about nine hours.  I get back to the dorm, and my roommate and her boyfriend are watching an episode of something.  The episode finishes and they ask me if I want him to leave.  I say that he has a paper that he should finish editing, and trust me his papers need editing.  My roommate looks at me and says, but you won't be going to bed for another few hours.
       I take this to mean that the only way I can kick her boyfriend out is by saying that I am going to sleep.  At least next week is spring break, and that next year we will have separate rooms.

Valentine's Day

      It's Valentine's Day this Thursday, as I am sure you all know.  I've always had a negative view on the concept of Valentine's Day, it could be because I've been single a majority of my life.  Why does there have to be a specific day for couples to show their love?  I know one girl who was complaining that it was her first Christmas season being single in six years, welcome to the club.  Couples can do couple-y things all year round.
      I've always wanted a relationship where we can tell each other how we feel anytime of the year.  It's the little things that count.  Maybe it's just splurging and going out and getting a meal or dessert that is more expensive, or leaving little notes, or taking a small weekend trip to someplace new.
      Also I don't understand why flowers are such a big deal.  Alright I understand that they are out of season so they mean something a little but more.  I grew up in a household where we had flowers in the house all year round, or at least potted plants like Christmas cactus that bloom in the winter, or orchids which bloom a really long time.  Wow I am extremely cynical, sorry guys.
      I wish a show like Lip Service was on the air again.  The media tends to portray Valentine's Day as a day for heterosexual couples.  Speaking of which I saw a most infuriating Facebook group that was titled:  "Heterosexual Awareness Month."  I've glanced at some of their photos and they act like heterosexuals are as discriminated against as the LGBT community.  Yeah, like they can lose housing or jobs for their sexual orientation.  They also enforce the classic stereotypes that women should make the husband lunch and do all the housework, while the husband will make the money and kill the spiders and even get the mail.  Seriously?!?!?  I can kill my own spiders and even leave the house on my own free will.
      Sorry for the long post, take some breaks, enjoy Valentine's Day!

Theta Tau

       In the last week I have been pledged to Theta Tau, a co-ed engineering fraternity.  I figured it would be a good way for me to hang out with other engineers, and it would look good on a resume.  The people seem to be pretty nice, I am guessing that most of them would be accepting of my sexuality if I was to tell them.  It was fascinating seeing some of the pledges get wasted, one guy started hiccuping every other word!  It was also fascinating to see some of the older women in the fraternity take me under their wing.  It will be a great time overall!  Anyhow hope you are doing well, and have a relaxing weekend!

Ups and Downs

       As you grow older you realize that some people don't care about you.  I realized that last semester with the study group that I had been a part of.  I tried to connect with them, they are mainly female engineers, who all want to talk about their man crushes and stuff.  I was there to study, and to have people to relax with.  It started with one of the girl's getting an iPhone.  A few days after this happened we were waiting for class to start, our other group members had skipped class.  I was trying to hold a conversation with her and she said "Oh one sec, I just got this really important text.  I'm trying to plan a surprise birthday party for a friend back home."  I noticed that she had never done this to anyone else in our study group.  Then it went further, she would always take pictures of her and another girl in class, and I would be left to the wayside.
       Now I have classes with members of the old study group, I've said hi a few times but was never really paid attention to.  Luckily I am now forming a group that actually talks to me. It's nice knowing that you are appreciated.
        Also, Lip Service has been cancelled after two seasons.  There was so much to be resolved in the last episode.  I really wish BBC3 would have allowed a third season to wrap things up.  It also means that there aren't anymore TV shows devoted to gay and lesbians.  At least Heather Peace is still acting.  I don't know how good a show it is though.  She did an excellent job playing Sam.  If I had been 10 years older I wouldn't have minded dating Sam or Heather herself.  One last thing:  coffee burns hurt, almost as bad as hot glue gun burns.

Matchmaking

        My roommate has decided to be a matchmaker.  She says that one of her guy friends back home and I would be a good couple.  To some extent it amuses it, to another it rubs me the wrong way.  And yes, I am still closeted, I will try to let readers know when I am not.
        I don't know why I'm not attracted to men, I guess it's because I usually see them as friends or brothers, never in a sexual manner.  I mean sure I do notice when a guy has a well sculpted face, but it never goes farther than that.  I know straight women point out another woman's positive features, but they are never attracted to women.  I suppose it's a good thing that I am not attracted to men being  in engineering, it allows me to focus on my work.  Yet this also hinders me in finding a girlfriend of my own, since there are few females already there is a lower chance of find someone who is bi or gay.  I'll find someone special soon enough I suppose.
         Well I hope school or work are going well for you faithful followers.  Stay sane, have a cup of tea, read a book, go sledding, have fun!